3/29

I was involved into a horrible war this morning, and I have won. X Japan, maybe the most great rock band in Japan's or even the world's music history, is coming to Taiwan on 5/30! I've listened to their albums since I was a senior high school student, and I'd love to see them so much since I was a senior high school student.

Last week, on 3/21, we had a department of foreign languages' volleyball game in Taipei Jing Mei's Shih Shin University, so the last day before we had the game, YoB, A Mor, Syau Pon and Joseph came to my home to sleep for a night. It was quiet a special experience that so many friends came to sleep in my home together. The next day, we went to Shih Shin by bus & MRT at 7:30. When we arrived, It had been 8:30. We had three games in that day, with Taipei University, Kao Hsiung Education University and Dan Jon University.

2/21-2/27

It has been about two weeks since this semester began, and I get 24 credits this semester so my schedule is quiet busy. Everythings seems good so far and I'm just about to adapt school life once more except one of my class called The Development of a Country teached by teacher Lee because most students feels bad on his class. On teacher Lee's class, I think he's not teaching us about the development of a country but just showing off his "glory" experience of studying abroad and making speeches abroad. On his first class when he just entered the classroom, he had began to show off. He said "Oh, when I woke up this morning, it was snowing~ because I was still in France and I just come back to Taiwan now." And this is just only the beginning, because during his class he's just showing off all the way. And I have heard a lot of criticism about this teacher. They said showing off is just one of his acceptable shortcomings. He's also bad tempered and he has a strange standard of giving grades to students, and no one knows how his standard is because some of those who concentrates on the class get low grades and some of the sleepers in the class get high score. I hope I would be alright on this class during this semester. The feeling is good to be able to see friends everyday, I really missed them during the winter vacation.

Vacation is always too short, and time always goes too quickly; The new semester has quietly come. I look forward to the new semester very much. I can't wait for its coming, and I also wish that the vacation would never end. In this winter vacation, there's not enough time for me to do many things. There are two three main program in my winter vacation: English camp of our department, Journey to Keelung and my grandparents' home in Chung Hwa.
This is my second time to join the working group of the English camp in our department. The last time when I became one of the members in the English camp, I was just a silly freshman who's full of passion to the activity. After a year, when I attended it this winter vacation, I found that things changed a lot: I'm not as innocent, anxious and enthusiastic as I used to, instead, I found that I've become much more steady than before, and I have could guide the freshmen just like the way the sophomores guided me before. This is my first time to really realize that I've become a sophomore.
After the English camp, Claire, Jackie, Rocio and I moved on to Claire's home in Keelung the next day. Claire's parents were quite hospitable, and Claire guided us to many famous spot in Keelung: Jyo Fen, Da Jen Mountain and Keelung Temple Night Market. In this three-day-long journey, we shared much about the funny experience in the childhood. Claire told us about the stupid things her interesting senior high school friend did in her senior high school years. In the second night, we went to a seacoast and stepped on the beach. Talked, laughed and then went back Claire's home riding scooters with the shoes taken off. The last day in Keelung, coincidentally, is near Alen's and my birthday, so we went to a bookstore to buy birthday cards. The experience of watching others writing birthday cards to me on my own face. These three days are pretty impressive.

Last week, Christmast Eve, we held a performance in 89k. Six rock bands of our school performed there. We've practiced and practiced for a long time for today, and it was really successful. More than one hundred people came to see the performance, and when we performed, the atomosphere was so high that everyone stood up and clapped their hands with the tempo. We started the perform from 10 o'clock to about 2 o'clock. We were the 3rd band to perform and we performed totally five song: Endless Rain, I for you, Segaigaowarumadewa, Glamorous Sky, and Last Christmas. When I got home, I was exhausted because I had screamed and yelled for all the night. Thank A Myau Myau, A Myau Myau II, Gang Ga, Jyong, WaWa, all the bands came to perform and all the band members: Yamajian, Book, Hwa, Joseph and Yuan. I love you!!:D Also thank so much to all the friends came to see our performance...:)

blank memories

Just now, I went to my blog in Wretch which have been neglected by me for more than half a year.

I started writing the blog in the end of my senior high school life. I have a strange habit when I'm writing my blog, every piece of my articles other people can see is about happy things happened before, and I would always hide those sad part secretly, and sometimes I even delete those sad parts. I hate to let other people to see my grey side, because it always makes other people feel worried and infected with my negative emotions. Showing my happy memories can not only entertain my friends when they read my blog but also make myself happy when I surf my articles.

At that time, writing a blog was such a happy thing for me, because most everythings I wrote was about my hapiness, because I got few things to worry about, to be sad for.

Everytime when I wrote the blog, I always had to spent more than half an hour to finish a piece of writing, because I just couldn't write what I think at that moment out directly, I'm bad at editing word, maybe. Before every words typed down, I spend very very much time on running back over my memory in the brain and think what happened before and feel how I felt at that moment. It is really a hard work to flash back things which touched my heart, especially the refeeling part. I have to retaste again and again how I felt to write down how I felt, and everytime I try to recall my deepest feeling and memories, I can't help but think of those unhappy parts. When I'm recalling my happy part , it really makes me feel happy, but when I think of something sad, every moment during the writing was a torture to me because I have to experience those bad things again and again.

As the time goes by, maybe everyone have to be foced to grow, I gradually find that happy things get less and less, and more and more unhappy things come to me. Everytime I tried to write down those happy memories, sadness, emptiness, anger come to me, too. It was so hard to get those annoying negative emotions out of my mind. Just like three or fourvicious ant biting inside slowly and bit by bit during that I'd rather being bitten by a toxic viper and die right away.

As a result, I gave up writing anyway. I wanna escape from those bad emotions. I don't wanna feel hurt anymore. Writing memories always made me think of bad memories.

Just a moment before, I browsed some blog of my senior high school friends', everyone leads his or her colorful life and there's filled with memories, maybe happiness, maybe sadness, maybe anger. So colorful that I'm so jealous.

And then, I started browsing the blog I wrote before, and griefly I found that all I can see in my blog was only

empty...

and I tried to recall anything I can still think of and wanna grip them, I found I can't... There are only some incomplete pieces of memories.

What the hell life I live in these days........?

2008.11.2-8

God, suddenly the midturn is coming next week! Everytime when I think of studying, it's always too late. There are so many subject to study: English Literature, English Grammar, Japanese, English Novels and the linguistic science... Suddenly I wish I could have a brain smarter ten times than others. It's nearly a impossible mission to finish studying these subjects in only a weekend. The subject I worry about most is English Literature, because the English words in that book are really hard to understand. Everytime when I read it, I always fall asleep within no more than half an hour. It seems that I have to go to the market to buy a whole box of coffee reinvigorate myself this weekend.
Yesterday, I went to Malulen with Yi Jin to buy the All Pa Tang for the freshman in our school family. Last year I was still receiving the sophomore's All Pa Tang, and now it's my turn to give. How time flies....