Last week, Christmast Eve, we held a performance in 89k. Six rock bands of our school performed there. We've practiced and practiced for a long time for today, and it was really successful. More than one hundred people came to see the performance, and when we performed, the atomosphere was so high that everyone stood up and clapped their hands with the tempo. We started the perform from 10 o'clock to about 2 o'clock. We were the 3rd band to perform and we performed totally five song: Endless Rain, I for you, Segaigaowarumadewa, Glamorous Sky, and Last Christmas. When I got home, I was exhausted because I had screamed and yelled for all the night. Thank A Myau Myau, A Myau Myau II, Gang Ga, Jyong, WaWa, all the bands came to perform and all the band members: Yamajian, Book, Hwa, Joseph and Yuan. I love you!!:D Also thank so much to all the friends came to see our performance...:)

blank memories

Just now, I went to my blog in Wretch which have been neglected by me for more than half a year.

I started writing the blog in the end of my senior high school life. I have a strange habit when I'm writing my blog, every piece of my articles other people can see is about happy things happened before, and I would always hide those sad part secretly, and sometimes I even delete those sad parts. I hate to let other people to see my grey side, because it always makes other people feel worried and infected with my negative emotions. Showing my happy memories can not only entertain my friends when they read my blog but also make myself happy when I surf my articles.

At that time, writing a blog was such a happy thing for me, because most everythings I wrote was about my hapiness, because I got few things to worry about, to be sad for.

Everytime when I wrote the blog, I always had to spent more than half an hour to finish a piece of writing, because I just couldn't write what I think at that moment out directly, I'm bad at editing word, maybe. Before every words typed down, I spend very very much time on running back over my memory in the brain and think what happened before and feel how I felt at that moment. It is really a hard work to flash back things which touched my heart, especially the refeeling part. I have to retaste again and again how I felt to write down how I felt, and everytime I try to recall my deepest feeling and memories, I can't help but think of those unhappy parts. When I'm recalling my happy part , it really makes me feel happy, but when I think of something sad, every moment during the writing was a torture to me because I have to experience those bad things again and again.

As the time goes by, maybe everyone have to be foced to grow, I gradually find that happy things get less and less, and more and more unhappy things come to me. Everytime I tried to write down those happy memories, sadness, emptiness, anger come to me, too. It was so hard to get those annoying negative emotions out of my mind. Just like three or fourvicious ant biting inside slowly and bit by bit during that I'd rather being bitten by a toxic viper and die right away.

As a result, I gave up writing anyway. I wanna escape from those bad emotions. I don't wanna feel hurt anymore. Writing memories always made me think of bad memories.

Just a moment before, I browsed some blog of my senior high school friends', everyone leads his or her colorful life and there's filled with memories, maybe happiness, maybe sadness, maybe anger. So colorful that I'm so jealous.

And then, I started browsing the blog I wrote before, and griefly I found that all I can see in my blog was only

empty...

and I tried to recall anything I can still think of and wanna grip them, I found I can't... There are only some incomplete pieces of memories.

What the hell life I live in these days........?

2008.11.2-8

God, suddenly the midturn is coming next week! Everytime when I think of studying, it's always too late. There are so many subject to study: English Literature, English Grammar, Japanese, English Novels and the linguistic science... Suddenly I wish I could have a brain smarter ten times than others. It's nearly a impossible mission to finish studying these subjects in only a weekend. The subject I worry about most is English Literature, because the English words in that book are really hard to understand. Everytime when I read it, I always fall asleep within no more than half an hour. It seems that I have to go to the market to buy a whole box of coffee reinvigorate myself this weekend.
Yesterday, I went to Malulen with Yi Jin to buy the All Pa Tang for the freshman in our school family. Last year I was still receiving the sophomore's All Pa Tang, and now it's my turn to give. How time flies....

Recently, I suddently find a serious problem of mine, that every time when I speak, I always wonder, am I really a student of Department of Foreign Language? When I speak Japanese, my accent sounds like speaking English. When I speak English, I'm Mandarin accented. When I speak Mandarin, I got Taiwanese accent... Shame on me...
Friday, October 31, 2008
The freshmen in our department have a cheer squad race this afternoon, so I skipped the English speaking class to go to watch their game. When I watched them performing, I thought of so many old memories of my freshman life. The cheer squa, the chorus race...all the activities, all the races we had, and now I am a sophomore, how time flies~

Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Since I have come back to Taichung, I haven't completely exercise for a while. When I was in Taipei in the summer vacation, I used to do some exercise every night because I have some exercising equipment at home and those equipments are very convienent. However, my body becomes tired easily recently. Fortunately, I got a weight trainning class this semester, so I can use the equipments once a week on the class in the gym and I can keep my own body in a good condition. The PE teacher tought us about the knowledge of weight trainning. On the class, all of us have to design a exercise prescription for ourselves. First, we need to test the limit of our muscles through the equipment, and then we can set the prescription. For example, If I would like to strengthen my endurance of muscle, I'll do some lighter trainings and do them for longer time and rest shorter, and if I would like to strengthen the explosive force of my muscle, I need to do some heavier exercise in a shorter time and rest longer. I think this class is pretty cool and I do like this class. I want strong muscles!!!!!!!! = =+

Sunday, October 12, 2008
The day before yesterday was Double Tenth Day, and I went back home in Taipei then. I stayed at home for three days until this afternoon today. It is so good to lie on the sofa watching TV and eat meals made by my mom at home. My brother also came back home today, he took three days of from the army serving. He told me lots about his life in the army. Once I had a dream to serve in the armed force to train and grow myself to become a real man, however, this dream was broken because of the army life told by my brother. He said that in the army they're treated as stray dogs and everything could have them being blamed by the superior. Oh, I once thought serving in the army is fun...

Monday, October 13, 2008
Oh, English literature... It was so hard to be awake on the English Literature class that I just couldn't help but fell asleep on class, because I slept late on Sunday, and the lesson really bored me today... In the afternoon, I took a military class to reduce the days of serving in the army. In that class, the military drillmaster often tell us something useful or some of his aspect of politic and life.

Wednesday, October 14, 2008
Tonight, I went to have dinner with my school families in a spaghetti restaurant. There are three freshmen in our school family this semester. So many people~

9/30 freewriting 1

Everyone had done something stupid during the childhood. I led a especially stupid and shameful childhood. I still remember, when I was a little boy, what I hate most are meal times. Eating meals was a torture to me, because I absoloutely a slow eater. The longer time I used to eat lunch, the less time I could go play around. However, it was almost impossible for me to finish the meal on time! I could start eating lunch in the afternoon, and finish it till the night, and then I could continue eating my dinner. For this reason, I always had no time to play with other children, and that's why I say eating meals is a torture to me. After countless play time missed, I learned some ways to help me eat faster: First, I could let the food become less and through so I could eat less.